Running Just to Lose Myself

Today—I can’t think—

that’s not actually true.

Today—I can’t focus

because I’m thinking of

—too many things—

but that’s not right either.

Today—there is One—

huge—thing—occupying

my mind and I’m trying

to run from it—from idea

to idea—stuffing different—

irrelevant—concepts

into my brain—to try—

to distract—to drown out—

to suffocate—that One thing.

And yet—it will—not—die.